Good morning. You wrote that you found relief in your perspective only, regardless of.., that’s all that matters. ..

Going back in our old email history, it’s the same thing almost on the same day. It’s almost the same thing we both message back-and-forth to each other. It needs to change. The only way for that to happen is for you to tell me how you want it and the way you want it. We both can’t keep on going like this. If you wouldn’t mind, can you please tell me your way? And then we will do it your way. I can’t keep guessing or assuming based on things that you write. I take what you write and say like gospel. It is confusing for both of us. I take you literally. Both of us have to be tired of the guessing game and assumptions. I will do as you need and want and do things your way, so if you could please tell me what your way is. ..

It won’t be me vanishing or disappearing or anything like that. It is just me respecting your boundaries, space and your choices and decisions. I will always be available to you if you choose and decide for yourself and not be forced to by me. ..

I do not understand your message from this morning st 7:02am. I am too busy to try and figure out your bullshit code messages. I will avoid everything if it doesn’t make sense.. and since you take everything as gospel, I will do the same. Nothing without the hard evidence proof. Nothing. Take care.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Disregard my last message. I’m going to take what you wrote about Kristie and Pam and Angie as the gospel. Thanks. Take care.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I wasn’t expecting you to completely ignore me, but it does answer all my questions. No more reaction from me. Good luck.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I’m not ignoring you. It’s always the same. Read your message he said to disregard. ..

I don’t want you anymore. There’s your gospel. No more. You are an idiot. Goodbye. I won’t be responding to anything. Don’t care what it is. Happy for you. I am done with you. Gospel. Kristie can have you. Happiness.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Happy that we agree that it’s over. You can cowardly be with your slut. I will move on to an honest relationship. Good luck in the future!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

The police told me that I needed to give you notice that I don’t want any contact from you. This is my notice. There’s no reason for you to contact me ever again about anything. Thanks. Take care.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

You have an art for saying nothing. I get it. Here’s how this works.. since you’re ignoring me I will have to get a lawyer to put it into words and maybe that will make you wake up. I’ve been ignored and pushed around for too long. You are not worth any of this! If anything, I’ve learned just how cold and callous you are. You don’t give a fuck! And now I don’t! I just want to be untangled from you.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I don’t need to explain what you already know. Happy game playing with some other unfortunate woman that crosses your path. You are a heinous monster!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I understand clearly now what Pam went through when you decided to discard her like garbage! Definitely Enough Dead and tortured women!! I get it!! You fucked her over and now you’re fucking me over!! Women should stick together and put garbage like YOU on the curb!!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

So why are you still contacting me? It’s makes no sense. I’m going to now do it your way and say nothing. Push me right out of your life by saying nothing. Interesting strategy but it will backfire. All you’re doing is creating so much more pain and that’s the way you like it. Your dead pathetic drug addict wife gave you so much drama. And now you need to create as much pain as possible for others because you’re nothing. ..

It’s called gray rocking someone.. but you didn’t need to do that to me to rid yourself, I happily will go!! Happily! Happy gray rocking!!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I had s type of relationship with that person? Huh? Never mind gray rock lives

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I understand you’re avoiding what you wrote. Now I understand. You had s type of relationship. Got it.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

You’re causing me so much pain. I understand why she killed herself to get away from you. You’re hurting me on purpose. It’s unbelievable. But thank you for showing your scales in the light. Scary scary stuff. I’m afraid. You win.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Simply, a bunch of .. ..

You win ..

Since you’re so hell bent on hurting me.. thanks. He will be surprised and happy that I’m single again. Thank you Joey for absolutely throwing me away so heinously and spitefully. I truly will remember this forever. Everything happens for a reason and I guess you had a reason to shit all over me. It’s not unnoticed. Thank you again. Thank you.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

He Never had to shave to pretend it’s bigger! He didn’t have to. He’s already huge! FU! Thanksgiving was incredible. Go look at that nasty skank you left me for. Scary ugly.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Your smallest ever. Dawne was desperate. Kristie is so the person for you. God thank you! Sincerely!!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

You dragged me down to your level unfortunately.. this is just silly. Wasting my time no more. It’s time to start living and having fun and letting myself be enjoyed and enjoy. No need for any response or reaction whatsoever. I will just assume you’re going on with your life as I will be as well. See ya!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I’m bored with this childish routine. Have a great night!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

It’s email. It’s not actually discussing anything. It’s just back-and-forth between one email address and another. That’s why. ..

It’s email, it’s just one statement sent to an email address after another one and back-and-forth. Just statements. It’s not discussing anything. It’s one statement after another and back-and-forth. it’s impersonal and leaves the other party to interpret the tone and tenor. And a response is being written with another being received. It’s freaking email. ..

Email also isn’t private. Email is clear text sent over the Internet that can be easily captured or copied. It’s not secure and it’s not private. ..

I will use that in court. You threatened me. Go ahead and see what happens if you put my personal stuff on the internet. Double dog dare ya! You look good in stripes!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I would hate for your kids to see what you wrote about their mother being a dick sucking whore? Your kids don’t need to know that you said Dawne was a prostitute.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Once again, you have misread what I was trying to say about email. It’s not a good form of Communication and it leads to miss reading what somebody’s trying to tell you. ..

I would hate for [ NAME HAS BEEN REDACTED ] to know that you said he was a mistake! His crack head whore of a mother got knocked up and he was a mistake.. your words Joseph. Don’t threaten me.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I’m not threatening you in any way shape or form. It is why companies and lawyers put the disclaimer at the bottom of emails. ..

You’re just misread what I’m writing so I’m just not gonna write anymore. ..

How about this.. just stop emailing me, stop texting me and go live your life and stop trying to drag me down with you. I don’t want this. This is a burden. I just want to go on and live a happy life and share with a man who appreciates me and is honest from minute One! Please just let me go. Go cause someone else to die because it isn’t going to be me no matter how hard you try. You’ll just end up in stripes. Guaranteed. Quit while you’re still free...

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Since it’s an open invitation maybe I will forward the email you sent me to Kristie.. you sent her naked photo via email. I bet she could get a lawsuit against you for that! Thanks for the new information about email! I will let her know!!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

This is just more of the same. It’s not actually discussing anything. It’s a statement after statement. You misread me and I’m good at writing. ..

I’m not threatening you with anything I was just making you aware if you thought email was private you’re wrong. That’s all I was trying to convey to you. ..

[ NAME HAS BEEN REDACTED ] made PORN and distributed it!! JOSEPH ROBERT MONTES jacks off his little noodle to [ NAME HAS BEEN REDACTED ] PORN. Ha!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I will say it again! Stop emailing me! Stop texting me! You’re provoking and harassing me!!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Remember this.. I was weak and didn’t fight back years ago.. this time will be different and you will serve time in prison. I will fight back this time! Remember it. Absorb it. You have threatened me again and I’m taking notice of your threat. I won’t back down this time! The only reason you didn’t serve prison time is because I didn’t fight! See what happens if you try to harm me or have someone else on your behalf try to harm me. You put the threat out there. You think you’re above the law but you’re not! I have all of your voice recordings of when you threatened to take down the police and the judges. They will stop you.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

And because of your terrorist threat I’m going to go to the police. Filing s formal restraining order based off of your threat!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

It was no threat. Was just making you aware why I’m not saying much of anything in email. I ..

Last thing.. You won’t force me to be with you anymore! You’ve terrorized me and made me afraid for my life but I’m going fight back now! NO Woman should ever feel forced to be with you! You are pathetic! You are a terrorizing lunatic! You think you can threaten me just because I DONT want you! You have been holding me hostage with your threats for years!! I AM NOT YOUR HOSTAGE ANYMORE!!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Cult leaders threaten to keep victims from leaving the cult! You won’t stop me from leaving and you won’t threaten me or terrorize me anymore!

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

I’m not going to try and cause any trouble for you as you navigate your new life and new girlfriend. I’m an adult and know that sometimes things just don’t work. We didn’t work, but I do want you to be happy with someone else. I hope you will want that for me and for me to be happy without any interference from you. I’m sorry it ended like this.. and I’m sorry that I was the only one who cared enough to say I’m sorry. You never cared and your not sorry, but that’s done now. You made that decision and choice. I hope you have s wonderful life ahead of you and that you get all the things that bring you happiness. God bless and good luck. I will be just fine. I’m tough. I will get through this smoothly. Goodbye Joey. Goodbye to your kids and I hope they are successful in their lives. Good luck.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Will you please call me back ..

Good morning, beautiful. Hope that you got to sleep and rest. I take [ NAME HAS BEEN REDACTED ] at 11 and I’ll be heading over with wire and stuff to fix the lights the trimmer and the mower spotlight to replace leaners. I love you and I miss you and I can’t wait to see you. ..

I don’t know why you let me come over today when you told me how much you hate me and how you wish I would die and rot in hell. Which is why I was uncomfortable being there. ..

I won’t interfere with you and your ex-husband or cause you any problems. ..

Good morning my love. I miss you. Hope you got to sleep and rest. Take to work at 11:30. Can’t wait to see you. I love and adore you. ..

I miss you. Can’t wait to see you. I fell back asleep watching avengers endgame. I’m brainstorming about that corner. I love you more than anything. ..

You are an ass. You’re sitting there with your cameras recording treating me like I’m an enemy of their mother. I’m sick of it. No go for today. Have fun.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

You also spoke about their mother in front of [ NAME HAS BEEN REDACTED ] because no way you were able to get him to work in five minutes. I hung up and you had dropped him off before 11:29 when you called me back. So that means once again, you have made [ NAME HAS BEEN REDACTED ] think I’m against their mother. The problem is YOU. Your loud obnoxious mouth, your constant bullshit lies. You treat me like I’m some fucking idiot. Enjoy Kristie’s porn asshole. Live it love it enjoy. I’m going to find an honest man. Goodbye. She is disgusting. Ugliest bitch I’ve ever seen but you enjoy.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

You never went to any dinner on Saturday. You stayed in that room all day and fucked the ugliest bitch on the planet. That’s why you took the pictures of her makeup smeared and messed up bed hair. Oh well.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Wrong. ..

You’re upset with me. I was just trying to help you save the information on your phone. I don’t have any back up. I don’t have the cloud. All I was doing was trying to help you save the information on your phone so it wouldn’t be lost. ..

Wrong. No worries. I will ignore you until you get it correct. Thanks. Take care.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

This is silly. Since you won’t be honest I will be. Kristie will be a thorn in my side until I die. Since no truths are coming my way, you need to go on and live your life with someone and start honestly. This doesn’t work and it never will. I know in my soul that your heart is with Kristie and I’m forcing my way out so you can be with her and you two can watch the porn and naked pictures and create more memories. Hope you can spend your birthday with her. Sincerely be well and happy.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

Pain in your ass I will be no more. ..

Ok. I will take that as you are leaving and that’s your choice. I wish you well and the best of luck. I hope you find exactly what makes you happy. I have a lot to do. Take care.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

You made your choice. My ex hubby will be more than happy to help me so no worries

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

You don’t have to worry about me In 21 days, I’ll Be headed to prison as you wanted, so I won’t be a pain in your ass anymore. ..

Good luck with Kristie. I’m getting the duck out of the way. I have adult things, you’re a pussy.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

It’s all on you. There’s no damn skank. That’s just a bunch of deflection and bullshit to deflect away from Your statement. You said flat out I’m a pain in your ass most of the time and you don’t need A man like me. Your words, tonight. I don’t wanna be a pain in anyone’s ass and I don’t know anybody that would want to be. It’s on you and I hope you and your ex hubby are happy together. You left that door open and that’s on you too. ..

More proof that you’re a pain and won’t grow up. No more from me. I will get in contact with him tomorrow. Thanks. Take care. No response necessary.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

He is brilliant and would never make such a foolish mistake. You lose.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

You are a weak little.. sorry we ever met. I am angry and no way I will let this go. I will get even. Jerk.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

God you will be so mad at yourself. Can’t go back now. Hahahaha! Omg. I’m going to enjoy. Mmmhmmmm. No more

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

It’s in the calendar in ink. Be well and happy. This is my closure0 and you’ll only hear from me through a lawyer. ????

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

So reminiscent of the days when my dog was sick, and you run off like a baby. Good riddance. I will never forget this and I’m better off without some weak and pathetic person. I’ve called for help and happy you have Pam, she’s the one for you. Take care.

Sent from my iPhone

... ..

This is the last thing I ever wanted to ask, but is your offer for the money I gave you for the driveway still valid? You have no idea how humiliating and embarrassing this is having to ask you that. It would provide some breathing room and allow me to keep the truck, work and earn money. ..

It would be unbelievably wonderful of you if it is and you would. ..

Can’t pay it. [Photo of disconnect notice from Ameren disconnect date 8/12] ..

I needed to ask. I understand. ..

I thought you might because I know the person that you are, but I do understand. ..

On the off chance that you read anything from me, you know that I would like to have my personal belongings and items back. ..

I’m sure that you’ve already gathered them and boxed or bagged them. I’m sure that you don’t want to store them or keep them. Can you please just get them returned to me? ..

This message is in regard to getting my personal items and belongings returned to me. I do want and would like to have my personal belongings and items returned. Heather, can you please, get them returned to me. Thank you. ..

If my belongings and items are on the way and they just haven’t arrived yet, thank you, I appreciate it and I’m sorry for these messages regarding their return. Thank you and be well. ..

This is and has been life-changing for me and of course I am grieving the absence of you from my life. Getting those items returned will help with the grieving and healing process. This is difficult enough as it is. I have shared my feelings many times before about this and how I view this and you already know. ..

I am really sad and depressed about all of this. I am grieving. Your absence is majorly significant and is and has been a major change. I don’t harbor one ill feeling about/for/toward you. I am not asking you for anything other than my personal belongings and items to be returned, which is normal and nothing out of the ordinary. ..

Lastly, I can’t go beyond this topic and I won’t be going beyond this topic. Even though I would like to. I just would like my items and belonging to returned. I’m sure you’re not reading any of this, but I am also sorry for all the messages regarding the return of those things. ..

I have never loved someone so much. I have never cared for someone so much. I have never missed someone so so much. I have never distrusted someone so much. To me, Not getting my personal items and belongings returned leaves the door open and that is the way I view it and take it. Maybe that is your intention or maybe not, but it is the way I view things. You know that I would like them back if.. ..

I am miserable and beyond depressed. They are taking everything this week. I miss my best friend. I am struggling mightily. I know I’m wasting my time by writing this because you’re not reading it anyways. I really need the money, but I know I’m just wasting my time asking. I’ve made it clear about my items and personal belongings. ..

I actually do love you. I actually do care deeply about you. I actually am in love with you. I actually miss you so damn much. I am actually totally miserable. I actually am absolutely completely depressed. I am totally desperate for money. My weight has cratered. I am beyond miserable. They actually are going to be taking my truck at the end of the week. I actually desperately did need that money. ..

As much as I don’t like this, and I hate it, actually, which makes no difference at all. I just don’t understand not allowing me to get my personal items and belongings back. I’m not asking with any intention of trying to provoke a reaction nor a response. I am asking, simply, because they belong to me. You know how I view this, I’ve expressed it many times. I miss my best friend. I miss you. I am miserable. I am depressed. You have been a major part of my life for a very long time. This has been more than difficult. It is difficult. You know how I view those things and it only adds to how difficult it is. I miss you. I don’t understand about not letting me get my belongings back. I just don’t. ..

This is really difficult, as it is, for me, not getting those back leaves it open for me making this even far more difficult. I do love you And I do care Deeply about and for you. I just don’t understand why I can’t get those back from you. ..

Hello. I go to my last probation meeting this morning at 10. I get to pee in a cup one last time. Next thursday at 12:01 a.m. I will no longer be a convicted felon. I will no longer be an inmate. Yes they did know, there was contact between us. Yes I faced going to prison. You have no idea the stress that I was under and had been living with. You couldn’t possibly. I miss you. I wish things were different. You know how I feel about my personal belongings and items. I love you with all my heart and I am really struggling, but I am functioning and being productive. Just been trying to figure out how to make money. Hope and wish things are going well for you and life finds you well. This has been really difficult, just would like to get my things back from you, if that’s the way you want this. I miss you and I love you. ..

I do love you. I do care about you. I do miss you. Not that makes any difference. You are my best friend. The pressure of the situation has eased quite a bit. Stress is coming way down. I would just like to do things normally and be normal. ..

Can’t we just do something normal?? You have talked with me only twice in over a month. It’s been over a month since we’ve seen each other, I don’t understand why I can’t get my things back from you. ..

You know this isn’t how I wanted things to be, but.. I am not asking for nor wanting something that is out of the ordinary or unusual. ..

You know, I want to be with you and for us to be together, but that doesn’t make any difference to you. I love and adore you. I don’t want to be a nuisance nor cause any problems for you. I just would like my belongings back, since, those things don’t make any difference to you. I’m not asking for anything unusual or out of the ordinary. ..

I paid off the truck in full today. I will be going next week to pay all my back real estate taxes. I have fixed and resolved my financial situation. I will be selling the house. when I resubscribed to SiriusXM they activated your radio and I cannot cancel it. It’s paid for another year. Sorry about that. ..

It requires you to call and cancel it, If you’re uncomfortable with it. ..

I am sorry about that. It wasn’t intentional. ..

I’m just letting you know it wasn’t intentional. ..

I do sincerely apologize for the intrusion. I tried to cancel, but they won’t let me. ..

Well, I’m going be getting a dumpster on Monday and begin clearing out and getting ready to move out. I have just been taking care of the things I needed too on my own, keeping busy and being productive. I am sincerely sorry that I still have moments where I call you, I miss you and you’ve been a major part of my life for a long time. I truly do love you with all my heart and soul. I realize that you don’t read anything from me, which is OK. I miss you more than words could ever describe. Hope you’re doing well. I miss you and I love you. ..

This past week, I went to my family and told them everything. Started with calling Paul to tell him about my financial situation and then my sister called and I finally yesterday called and talked to my dad and told him. My sister and Paul bought me out of the house and bought the jet skis and boat from me. This coming week either Monday or Tuesday I will be paying all my back real estate taxes on my home in full. I feel so much better and it wasn’t near as embarrassing and humiliating as I thought it would be, actually made me feel better. A whole lot better. I am selling the house and I am going to be moving. I don’t know where yet, but I will be moving. I am in a much better place than I have been in many years. The constant fear, anxiety, pressure and stress of going to prison is all but gone. I am no longer desperate, and making desperate decisions, which I have for many years. It was one desperate decision after another desperate decision which compounded into a total train wreck. I know you don’t read these things, but I thought I would share anyways and tell you that I have manned up. ..

Can I have them returned? ..

Tonight at midnight when it switches over to the 22nd, I’m officially done with probation. All the pressure, stress, anxiety, fear and desperation I had been under for a few years is all gone. I’m no longer desperate about anything. I’m going to be getting around $520k out of the house when it sells. I’m going to have an estate sale and then move whatever doesn’t sell. I can finally breathe. In roughly 60 days I am out of this house. I am going to rent for a little bit and take my time in picking a home instead of just a house. I have no ill feelings toward or about you at all. The pressure is off and I’m no longer full of anxiety and fear, and it feels wonderful. I can’t wait to get out of this house, It’s been my prison for many years. Hope life finds you well. ..

I’m sitting here remembering how I would jump from email address to email address to get your attention. I would call and call and call and I would start texting and texting and texting. All in a desperate attempt to get your attention. Whether you are reading things from me or not, that’s for you to decide not for me to try and make you. I remember, I would start to provoke and provoke and provoke to get you to pay attention to me out of sheer desperation and panic. It should’ve always been left up to you to decide and not forced upon you. I sincerely and deeply regret that I did those things and acted in such a horrible way to you. I am truly sincerely and genuinely sorry for my behavior and my words. ..

Hello. Hope all is going well for you. You once asked me, not long ago, what would I, actually, do if I got my belongings and stuff back from you? The answer is, I would go away and be completely out of your life. For me, my belongings being there provides me hope, as you want them and me there and provides a reason to continue to try and contact you and keep the auto shipments going. Getting my belongings returned to me will provide finality and complete closure. I believe you know this isn’t what or how I want it to be between us. I believe you know that I don’t want my belongings out of your home and to be out of your life and have you out of mine, but you do. I’m positive that you have gathered them up and they are bagged or boxed somewhere, there’s no reason for them to still be there and not returned to me. Returning them to me will get me totally out of your life. I did want the dolly back and the tools I left on the black rack next to the Mercedes, but you can’t mail those. I’m not asking for anything out of the ordinary nor unusual. It’s the final step and it closes the door shut. Not returning them, Keeps the door open, which is how I perceive it and feel about it. Not getting them returned, provides reason to continue to contact you. If you want me completely out of your life, then you will return my items back to me or allow me to collect them. Please let me know how and when you plan to get those back and returned to me. Please. ..

To be fair to you, you need to say those things again about not contacting you. Anything before today no longer can be used in court. ..