If you’re a bird, I’m a bird.

This is no knock on anyone, some people, want to make and diminish, discount and discredit what they don’t know to make themselves feel normal and to justify their awful behavior. So I’m going to skip and go right to the point. Somebody believes I’m a certain way, which I’m not and never have been. In no way am I beholden to somebody in St. Louis, that vessel of death and destruction has no bearing or influence or hold over me at all, if you want to know who does and why I am watch the notebook. Nobody loved allie the way Noah did and vice versa, that was the love story and relationship I had with Dawne. So if Dawne is a bird than I am a bird. I quite, frankly, don’t care what people think. I lived it. I loved it. I know it, and I still feel it. It fuels and engulfs me every day. And during the care flight from here to the hospital she was in my vision, just smiling, which brought me enormous, peace, calm and comfort, and she’s been with me every day since. Dawne and I had a relationship that was unique to us and how other people, who know absolutely nothing about it or lack the capability or capacity to even come close to that level of a relationship quite, frankly can kiss my ass because I don’t give a shit what nobody has to think or say. I don’t do stupid. I don’t do ignorant. I don’t do excuse makers after the stroke. I will never waste another second on anything less than.

Yesterday I severed all ties with Missouri , once and for all. I changed my phone number, the carrier and my phone. I will never have my mail forwarded, and I will just become a needle in a haystack.

I don’t do stupid and it is a huge waste of time, energy and effort, so I’m done with it. Won’t give it another thought nor any energy

It’s going to take me months upon months or a year or so to recover from a stroke that I had caused by an ankle bracelet that should’ve never been on my ankle because somebody put my mugshot on her front door, wouldn't take it down and refused and wouldn’t mail me back my shit. How fucking stupid that was.

2:27 AM 01/07/25